Real Time

I didn't give up, but I don't feel like a survivor either. I finished my UC applications, even suffering a baby anxiety attack and breakdown. I applied to UC Berkeley, UCLA, Irvine, Santa Cruz, and Davis. I got through the storm, but I honestly don't think my feet will get off the ground until later in my life. I swear, I've stayed the same kid between high school and this very instance.

So if I get accepted to all the schools I apply to, I would go to Berkeley, even after more than a year of hyping UCLA. I'll be closer to home without being too close and still experience life after San Jose. Though the bums will creep me out xforever, the atmosphere is inspiring and beautiful; perfect for an art student. UCLA will defintely be my second choice. UCLA is just in a dopeass place for any person to grow. The city will put people in check and help place them in reality, even being the city where dreams come true. And there's a shitload to do during the off-time. Since both schools have strong art programs, I'll win both ways. Let's just not consider the rejection from both schools.

The work might seem to lose its magnitude, but there's still hella shit to get done. I'm glad, however, that one of the hardest parts is over. I still have my finals, final art projects, and tons of studying to do, but I feel more confident about them. After fall quarter is over, I have to start on my supplementary application for UCLA which includes ANOTHER statement and a portfolio of between 6-10 images. It's due in about a month, but how come I feel like I'm going to procrastinate again? Another test of my character will be upon me sooner than I think.

I'm so looking forward to this break. I get to see my homies, bowl more, chill more, basically _____ more.

ANDDDD I get my volleyball check hollla! Buying presents will actually be a pleasasnt experience. I can finally get my parents, my sister, and Scott something without worrying much. I want to get a tree too, but it won't have any presents under it haha. We should just have a Christmas table!

God, let me survive this next week, this next break, this next month and I will truly be happy and grateful.



with success in my thoughts,
Ricardo Juni