It's true. You have disappointed me.
Why are you doing this to yourself? I thought you were bigger than this. When I saw you laying on the front porch, I knew you've given in. You've devalued yourself with lame excuses for your actions. Yeah, you were drunk, but that doesn't quite cut it. I used to exponentially look up to you as more than a best friend but as a sister who has come a long way. You've gone through so much shit, but you didn't let it phase you with grace and now you go to one of the best schools in the world. But now you're tearing at the seams and your insides are crumbling. I don't want to see you like this but I unfortunately have. Yeah, you definitely fucked up big time but bounce back! You deserve better, and you eventually will. You need to stop being okay with mediocre and crave for near perfection. I know it's easier said than done but the best always succeed. YOU are my best friend.
With unconditional love,
Ricardo Juni
ps. HELLLA HAWT. Manang Michelle's dinner at Kim Tar BBQ Restaurant. HENN with Anthony, Rosemary, and Jacky. Martika's for like 5 seconds. Back at my house and chilled.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Saturday, June 27, 2009
DAY 2
Today, 6/26, was fabulous!
I woke up and went to De Anza to sell some books and pick up my art portfolio. I left with $40 in mahhh wallet and an A in my Art4A class :] I could already tell it was going to be a good day. I chilled at home and organized the bbq for later on. I napped for a bit and woke up realizing that it was almost 6. Jacky and Mish took FOREVER to get to my house, but once they got here, we were off to pick up and Santi and get the supplies. We got a shitload of chicken, salsa ingredients, soda, and tortillas holllla! It was sooo funny seeing us 5 Filipinos kids pushing a cart at SU VIANDA, fuck. Then we went to Rite Aid to get the draaanks and had sooo much trouble in doing so. It said 4 Pepsis for $5 but I swear that shit didn't register in my head. I was getting Fanta and Squirt and Sierra Mist and all this shit. What a trip! We headed back to Santi's and got the kickback started! Bitches gradually came. We played video games (ugh), waited porebber for the chicken to grill, and just KICKED BACK YA KNOW! Random bitches came and left thanks be to God upstairs. Beer pong 'til the AM was funnny. Jacky just gave up on my ass and bitched out just like the slutty ho she is. Anthony was as pink as a sliced watermelon. I was dancing but nobody noticed :[ Everyone else was chill. But you know it ain't a party unless I'm there hehe. My record as of rightt now is 0-2 ;[ We boogied on out at around 3:45a.
Tomorrow: My sister's birthday dinner + draaanks at my house after + TRIPLE DIGIT HEAT.
Oh fuck, here we go!
with much gas,
Ricardo Juni
I woke up and went to De Anza to sell some books and pick up my art portfolio. I left with $40 in mahhh wallet and an A in my Art4A class :] I could already tell it was going to be a good day. I chilled at home and organized the bbq for later on. I napped for a bit and woke up realizing that it was almost 6. Jacky and Mish took FOREVER to get to my house, but once they got here, we were off to pick up and Santi and get the supplies. We got a shitload of chicken, salsa ingredients, soda, and tortillas holllla! It was sooo funny seeing us 5 Filipinos kids pushing a cart at SU VIANDA, fuck. Then we went to Rite Aid to get the draaanks and had sooo much trouble in doing so. It said 4 Pepsis for $5 but I swear that shit didn't register in my head. I was getting Fanta and Squirt and Sierra Mist and all this shit. What a trip! We headed back to Santi's and got the kickback started! Bitches gradually came. We played video games (ugh), waited porebber for the chicken to grill, and just KICKED BACK YA KNOW! Random bitches came and left thanks be to God upstairs. Beer pong 'til the AM was funnny. Jacky just gave up on my ass and bitched out just like the slutty ho she is. Anthony was as pink as a sliced watermelon. I was dancing but nobody noticed :[ Everyone else was chill. But you know it ain't a party unless I'm there hehe. My record as of rightt now is 0-2 ;[ We boogied on out at around 3:45a.
Tomorrow: My sister's birthday dinner + draaanks at my house after + TRIPLE DIGIT HEAT.
Oh fuck, here we go!
with much gas,
Ricardo Juni
Friday, June 26, 2009
First Blog of Summmmmaaa!
Whassup Whassup! I'm finally on summer break and I feel like a new person. I feel more like an independent black woman. Or maybe not. But I PEEL PREE PASHO! haha. My finals were out of control unsexy and I'm sooooo glad that it's all over. I think I'm going to end up with 2 As, 1 B, and 1 C; therefore, my GPA will be about the same! Oh to tha muhhhfuckin' well mang!
But damn, my Freshman year of college is actually over. I know I dreaded class almost everyday, but when I look back, it went by faster than one of my farts. How sweet! It seemed like my fifth year of high school, but with tougher teachers and actual white students in my classes! haha. I met some cool people, definitely stressed fireballs, chilled, and had amazing professors to be perfectly honest. I slacked off sometimes, but my study habits have improved without a doubt! I still have a problem procrastinating and organizing my time, but compared to how I was my Senior year of high school, it's like I'm a perfect student. Overall, I enjoyed my first year.
Anyway, I'm going to try and post a new blog everyday just for the hell of it. I wanna look back when I'm bored and have a good read.
SO TODAY 6/25: I took my last final which was for Anthro1. It was pretty hard since I barely studied for it. But what can you do. I went with EJ to sell his books so I can know how much my books would cost. Then I went home and literally just moped around with freedom. It felt sooooo goood. I took Scott to Circle-A to find that someone bought the last backpack that he wanted. WHAT A WASTE OF GAS. OH! And scary ghetto brothah hoodlums asked me and Scott for money so they could buy their bitchasses a McChicken. I told them that I didn't have change hehe. I fuckin' bet they had money, but just too cheap to buy it themselves. We went home and found out that the legend, the King, the Man (in the Mirror), Michael Jackson and 70's vixen and original Angel, Farrah Fawcett, passed away :[[[[[[ That hella put a damper on my day :[[ and MJJ was only 50 years YOUNG. Fuck. I'm glad that Ms. Farrah could finally rest in tranquility. God Bless them. I chilled at home and napped until 9:30p. Adrian called to come over Anthony's. So I did haha. Hookahed like usual. Jacky and Mish came over and we went to Adrian's house. I got my ass handed to me on UFC, no bitches, not TFC haha. Did our thang ;] and chilled at my house until around 4. Now, I'm here recording all this shieetttt. What a fabulous start to my break :]
And for the record, Michael Joe Jackson DID NOT molest any money-hungry children. I honestly believe, with all my heart, that MJ squared is a noble and honest man. He reminds me of Holden from The Catcher in the Rye because I believe that MJ found children to be the only innocent human beings on Earth. It all goes back to why he named his backyard "Neverland Ranch." The reference to never growing up and staying in the likes of children reveal internal struggles he has had growing up as a child star. And the whole thing about little boys and shit: since he suffered through a harsh childhood full of abuse, fame, and everything else a kid usually doesn't go through, he finds comfort in having a safe place for boys (and girls). He just wants to make an attempt in saving the children from inevitable corruption they will face by adults. He may be a little eccentric, but aren't the most memorable people in all of history just that? A little beyond the norm? So whatever to the haters, Mike! I may sound naive, but he appears to be really genuine. I can't stand all the shit thrown at him without him speaking on his behalf.
HOWEVER, the two things he's definitely not saying the truth about are his skin and surgeries. And there goes my tuppence worth. Thank you.
On a brighter note: Chillin' and evening BBQ in the hood tomorrow!
With much flava and a new mindset,
Ricardo Juni
But damn, my Freshman year of college is actually over. I know I dreaded class almost everyday, but when I look back, it went by faster than one of my farts. How sweet! It seemed like my fifth year of high school, but with tougher teachers and actual white students in my classes! haha. I met some cool people, definitely stressed fireballs, chilled, and had amazing professors to be perfectly honest. I slacked off sometimes, but my study habits have improved without a doubt! I still have a problem procrastinating and organizing my time, but compared to how I was my Senior year of high school, it's like I'm a perfect student. Overall, I enjoyed my first year.
Anyway, I'm going to try and post a new blog everyday just for the hell of it. I wanna look back when I'm bored and have a good read.
SO TODAY 6/25: I took my last final which was for Anthro1. It was pretty hard since I barely studied for it. But what can you do. I went with EJ to sell his books so I can know how much my books would cost. Then I went home and literally just moped around with freedom. It felt sooooo goood. I took Scott to Circle-A to find that someone bought the last backpack that he wanted. WHAT A WASTE OF GAS. OH! And scary ghetto brothah hoodlums asked me and Scott for money so they could buy their bitchasses a McChicken. I told them that I didn't have change hehe. I fuckin' bet they had money, but just too cheap to buy it themselves. We went home and found out that the legend, the King, the Man (in the Mirror), Michael Jackson and 70's vixen and original Angel, Farrah Fawcett, passed away :[[[[[[ That hella put a damper on my day :[[ and MJJ was only 50 years YOUNG. Fuck. I'm glad that Ms. Farrah could finally rest in tranquility. God Bless them. I chilled at home and napped until 9:30p. Adrian called to come over Anthony's. So I did haha. Hookahed like usual. Jacky and Mish came over and we went to Adrian's house. I got my ass handed to me on UFC, no bitches, not TFC haha. Did our thang ;] and chilled at my house until around 4. Now, I'm here recording all this shieetttt. What a fabulous start to my break :]
And for the record, Michael Joe Jackson DID NOT molest any money-hungry children. I honestly believe, with all my heart, that MJ squared is a noble and honest man. He reminds me of Holden from The Catcher in the Rye because I believe that MJ found children to be the only innocent human beings on Earth. It all goes back to why he named his backyard "Neverland Ranch." The reference to never growing up and staying in the likes of children reveal internal struggles he has had growing up as a child star. And the whole thing about little boys and shit: since he suffered through a harsh childhood full of abuse, fame, and everything else a kid usually doesn't go through, he finds comfort in having a safe place for boys (and girls). He just wants to make an attempt in saving the children from inevitable corruption they will face by adults. He may be a little eccentric, but aren't the most memorable people in all of history just that? A little beyond the norm? So whatever to the haters, Mike! I may sound naive, but he appears to be really genuine. I can't stand all the shit thrown at him without him speaking on his behalf.
HOWEVER, the two things he's definitely not saying the truth about are his skin and surgeries. And there goes my tuppence worth. Thank you.
On a brighter note: Chillin' and evening BBQ in the hood tomorrow!
With much flava and a new mindset,
Ricardo Juni
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Roughly 4 1/2 hours of my first year of college left! Fuck, finally! But I still have an infinite amount of homework and studying to accomplish. While everyone's galavanting galavanting and enjoying a relatively cool start to summer, I'm still slaving over Finals. But since I AM the party and shit, their summer hasn't started yet either haha! So heyyyy! Just think, in exactly a week, I'll have almost no stress over ANYTHING. And I'll be at the BEACH, BITCHNIGGGAZ! Finals week will be my darkest hour.
I decided to drop my summer classes because I honestly feel that I would not be able to put all my focus and concentration into them. I even told my EWRT2 professor that. See, I was gonna take his summer EWRT1B class at 7:30a! He asked me after class if I was still taking it and I told him," yeah I don't think I could fully commit to it so why bother." He just laughed and I said tooodles! haha. I would need to pass EWRT1B and Physics 50 with at least Bs, but with summer activities overflowing in my calenday already, it seems a tad ideal. It'll be hard next year though to juggle everything, having to coach volleyball and actually get into limited classes due to budget cuts.
The Fall 09 course catalogue came out and I'm planning my classes already! So far, I'm thinking of taking an EWRT1B online class, Physics 50, ARTS8, and some GE class. I just realized every quarter is going to get harder and harder. There goes my GPA yikes!
what else hmmmm. I guess you guys can tell I've had school on my brains for the past few weeks. I'm just sooo scared of failing and redoing my whole high school career. Community college is like a second chance for me so I can't blow it this time around.
Oh and.....
BEYONCE JULY 9 IN SACTOWN YOU ALREADY KNOW!
With great energy,
Ricardo Juni
I decided to drop my summer classes because I honestly feel that I would not be able to put all my focus and concentration into them. I even told my EWRT2 professor that. See, I was gonna take his summer EWRT1B class at 7:30a! He asked me after class if I was still taking it and I told him," yeah I don't think I could fully commit to it so why bother." He just laughed and I said tooodles! haha. I would need to pass EWRT1B and Physics 50 with at least Bs, but with summer activities overflowing in my calenday already, it seems a tad ideal. It'll be hard next year though to juggle everything, having to coach volleyball and actually get into limited classes due to budget cuts.
The Fall 09 course catalogue came out and I'm planning my classes already! So far, I'm thinking of taking an EWRT1B online class, Physics 50, ARTS8, and some GE class. I just realized every quarter is going to get harder and harder. There goes my GPA yikes!
what else hmmmm. I guess you guys can tell I've had school on my brains for the past few weeks. I'm just sooo scared of failing and redoing my whole high school career. Community college is like a second chance for me so I can't blow it this time around.
Oh and.....
BEYONCE JULY 9 IN SACTOWN YOU ALREADY KNOW!
With great energy,
Ricardo Juni
Thursday, June 11, 2009
SHAZAAAAAMM!!
Sooo.
I technically have two more weeks of Spring quarter, but actually only 4 days of instruction left before 3 days of finals. Not bad at all. All is going well I guess, I'm just worried about my grade in Physical Anthropology. I IZZ SKURRED!
What else. Oh, I'm still debating on whether I should take summer session. I registered for two classes - EWRT 1B at 7:30a! and Physics 50 at 10a! That english class might be way too early for me so I might just drop it and keep that physics class. Yeah, I think I'll do that. I can relatively sleep in and get out before noon. The whole day will still be ahead of me, but it'll be hard to simultaneously focus on school and on each bright, sunny Californian day hehe. But Summer won't officially start until August 8th! By then, I would've have gone to the beach three million times and gone to the I AM Beyonce Tour and Fray Concert! HIP HIP!
Lately, I've been contemplating on where to transfer and whether I should change my major. I was thinking of changing it to Fine Arts, but I would just let everyone, including myself, down. I can't constantly go through life the "easy" way out. I gotta challenge myself; the harder the obstacle, the sweeter the outcome. Therefore, I'm considering Fine Arts as my minor yee! And SCHOOLS. Besides UCLA, I'm thinking of UC Berkeley and University of Southern California, both for architecture. This whole time, I thought LA had the actual architecture program, pero it only has architecture STUDIES wtf? But anyway, these may seem like big dreams. And fuck, maybe they are, but this is part of my life-long challenge. I've been strategizing and so far, this is what I got: At least get Bs in my GE courses, but ACEEEEE physics, calculus, and all the art courses I have to take. It's POSSIBLE! AND everytime I work on an art project, I have to put everything I got because it could be a possible piece in my portfolio. WHOOOP THERE IT ISSS!
Ummmm. I think that's it.
*2 As, 2 Bs.
*Physics 50 preps me for Physics 2A. Ace that mothafucka! And drop EWRT 1B. Tooo fuckin' early please!
*Talk to a counselor about class scheduling for next year, and transfering! Eeeeekness nigga!
With big dreams,
Ricardo Juni
I technically have two more weeks of Spring quarter, but actually only 4 days of instruction left before 3 days of finals. Not bad at all. All is going well I guess, I'm just worried about my grade in Physical Anthropology. I IZZ SKURRED!
What else. Oh, I'm still debating on whether I should take summer session. I registered for two classes - EWRT 1B at 7:30a! and Physics 50 at 10a! That english class might be way too early for me so I might just drop it and keep that physics class. Yeah, I think I'll do that. I can relatively sleep in and get out before noon. The whole day will still be ahead of me, but it'll be hard to simultaneously focus on school and on each bright, sunny Californian day hehe. But Summer won't officially start until August 8th! By then, I would've have gone to the beach three million times and gone to the I AM Beyonce Tour and Fray Concert! HIP HIP!
Lately, I've been contemplating on where to transfer and whether I should change my major. I was thinking of changing it to Fine Arts, but I would just let everyone, including myself, down. I can't constantly go through life the "easy" way out. I gotta challenge myself; the harder the obstacle, the sweeter the outcome. Therefore, I'm considering Fine Arts as my minor yee! And SCHOOLS. Besides UCLA, I'm thinking of UC Berkeley and University of Southern California, both for architecture. This whole time, I thought LA had the actual architecture program, pero it only has architecture STUDIES wtf? But anyway, these may seem like big dreams. And fuck, maybe they are, but this is part of my life-long challenge. I've been strategizing and so far, this is what I got: At least get Bs in my GE courses, but ACEEEEE physics, calculus, and all the art courses I have to take. It's POSSIBLE! AND everytime I work on an art project, I have to put everything I got because it could be a possible piece in my portfolio. WHOOOP THERE IT ISSS!
Ummmm. I think that's it.
*2 As, 2 Bs.
*Physics 50 preps me for Physics 2A. Ace that mothafucka! And drop EWRT 1B. Tooo fuckin' early please!
*Talk to a counselor about class scheduling for next year, and transfering! Eeeeekness nigga!
With big dreams,
Ricardo Juni
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